tteonajimara:

I am so not ready to hear jonghyun’s voice. Not when i know that he knew it was gonna be his last work.
I am so scared and i dont wanna be because everything is happening so fast and i cant seem to learn to live with this, and i’m so scared. I’m so scared i cant even look at him without feeling like i’m drowning and it’s shitty because i love him so much but he’s gone and it feels like someone took my heart and i have this hole in my chest now. And it scares me that i think i’ll never be able to live with this.